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true freedom…

we live under constant control and societal pressures… we are molded and shaped to be the good little soldiers that perpetuate the world we live in… we are not always free in this country and/or many others… this realization is and has been a frustrating one in my life… i have pondered and obsessed over beating the system for many years… i have decided that thinking and writing about it is beneficial, but it is not the only type of progress i want to indulge in… i have realized that our perception of reality is subjective… this realization is empowering but also terrifying… with the knowledge that we all see the world differently, i have been able to move through life and situations with extreme confidence… my mind is opening up to all perspectives, whether they are congruent with mine or not… i am able to see every side of every situation with reflection and time… i can sense my mind becoming free of all control.

i have spent many hours of my life being angry that my development as an individual has been controlled and molded by people that promote normality… i, unconsciously and consciously, have steered away from following the herd… skateboarding was one of my first experiences with escaping the herd… i learned that pain, failure, hard work, and determination can pay off… not considering what others thought of my actions and just doing what i liked to do was a huge building block to my personality… i learned that not following the norm can open your eyes wider than ever possible (and potentially growing a third eye)… committing my free time to something personal and creative was/is the healthiest outlet/expression of one’s self… another form of freedom. i continue to shred to find escape and feel free…

my newest endeavor and focus has been cleansing my body of the chemically-altered/preservative-ridden/toxic food we are accustomed to consuming in our culture… i have found a passion in cooking and making food from scratch… using simple ingredients to create simple meals… i have used my obsession with beating the system to free myself of toxicity in my food and achieving my best overall health… another facet of the system we live in is ignoring our health to further our monetary progression, which gets stolen from us throughout time by the health care system or the hole we dug ourselves into by thinking higher education was the “only way” to succeed in life… i want to share my food with the world… my attempt to achieve this will be symbiotic with one of the core values of noLove, which is affecting one person at a time… i want to cleanse/heal/educate/free as many people as i can from this part of the system…

while i have felt empowered by my new found freedoms, there comes a sense of terror… a feeling of realization that you don’t need the things you convinced yourself you needed for so long… when you find inner peace, self awareness, self love, and a sense of easiness with solitude, you fear the lack of needing… our culture drowns in the feeling of needing… it is always more, more, more, more… enough is never enough… i have freed myself of this feeling… i believe that needing is a sign of weakness… i know i will hurt some feelings with this belief (and i have hurt some of the people closest to me by discounting the fact that people want to be needed/want to help), but we are all alone in this world… yes, we can be together, share laughs, share thoughts, support each other, love one another, create things, etc. and this is an amazing thing we get to indulge in as humans… but if you need this constantly, then you are setting yourself up for disappointment… person to person contact is a luxury we take for granted… don’t expect it… finding yourself can only be done with solitude and reflection… the freedom from needing has lead me to new thoughts and perspectives of my life and decisions as well as other peoples’ lives and decisions…

true freedom does not come from being in a certain place or country on this planet… it does not come from someone else telling/allowing you to be free… it does not come from successes… it does not come from an outside source… true freedom is having a free mind… a mind that is full of enlightenment and consciousness… a mind that sees the simplicity in existing… a mind that acknowledges the world around it, but is not directly affected by it… a mind that is not reactive but reflective… a mind that is open to any and all perspectives… to acknowledge the fact that we are alive is a good start… to open your eyes for the first time and see that you can just breathe, drink, and eat in order to exist is a huge step towards conscious living… i am beyond excited to continue to find my true freedom…

i will not sit around and be bummed out on “the way things are”… this does nothing to progress existence… things have been this way much longer than we know… i will continue to push forward and promote the good and simplicity in life… i will not dwell on/bask in the complexity/negativity… one day at a time we write our story… make everyday a conscious, productive, and positive day…

this is your life… no one will live it for you. find yourself and your freedom… it’s all yours if you want it.

peace and noLove…

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